happiness

Assalamualaikum,

i was here again and again . whatever . don't like ? 
then get your ass out of here .
why the picture and the tittle are not related ?
well , that's because i don't know either .
did i achieve my happiness or just a fake happiness ?

a lot can happen in a year .
just like this year ...
many things happen and i broke a lot .
i cried a lot too ...
things just getting hard as you grow older .

people are different .
they change so easily and sometimes you don't even know who is it ..
i might change but i still know who i am .
i know how cold-hearted i am .
but people easily judge you without investigate it .

i'm just an ordinary girl .
i don't have wealth , boyfriends , luxury things .
but i own a happy family .
how i wished i can turn back time to when i met my pen pals.
they knew when i need them . they always advice me .
how i miss them so much .

its not that i don't have a good friends ..
i did have ...
but the phobia is haunting me ..
i'm afraid of trusting people ..
they were good and kind .
i know they always there when i needed .

why , its so hard ? why ?
i know i'm happy but not as happy as kid that get their toys .
i'm just a loser .
starting next year , i have to work hard .
find my happiness . find the real me .
and not shed the tears anymore .


" no more hurting , no more crying just an amazing adventure "
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