KEJAM
Dah lama aku tak jejak sini sebab aku terlalu sibuk dengan dunia.
orang tengok aku mesti depa kata aku nie tak dak masalah kan ?
sebab orang yang akan tau aku betul betul ada masalah just a few of them. even kawan baik sendiri tak tau yang aku ada masalah. well , people nowadays busy with their own business.
aku bukan apa ,
aku memang suka sembang dengan orang get to know each other more .. i love those . but saying lies to me are just to rude dear.
am i that easy to be fool by you ?
bagi yang kenal aku , tau perangai aku macam mana bagi yang zero pasai life aku mohon pergi jauh jangan duk buat fitnah banyak banyak sgt.
bila pengetua nak kasi keputusan nieh ? aku rasa permintaan aku senang ja ." aku nak keluaq asrama " tu ja . simple as ABC. orang luaq tengok aigs nie besar , mewah but they don't even know thatj , it just cause pain to every students. serious aku cakap , aku buat keputusan yang salah untuk stay kat situ . dulu aku terlalu takut untuk hilang kawan . untuk hilang suasana yang aku dah biasa . takut nak jumpa laki . takut nak kena belajar science stream subjects in malay. aku takut keluar nanti iman aku tak terjaga . tapi aku salah . ketakutan aku dulu membawa padah dekat aku sendiri.
aku cuba untuk urus masa aku tapi hang tau tak yang kebanyakkan masa aku dihabiskan dengan buat kerja sekolah sahaja. selama 3 bulan aku stay asrama tahun nieh , aku tak pernah lagi ada masa untuk study. kerja sekolah untuk 11 subjek bukan stu dua subjek ja . kalau cuti 2 hari homework macam seminggu. kalau cuti seminggu homeworks macam sebulan .
keja cikgu senang lah , semak ja .kalau tak siap marah pelajar . kalau salah buat pangkah besaq besaq. typical life. hello , yes aku ambik spm tahun nie tapi kalau masa aku dihabiskan buat homework bila ja aku nak study . " takpa tahun nieh last"
yes the last year tapi nak tunggu the end of year yang perit tuh.
bila perlukan pertolongan kami bantu dengan rela hati , tapi bila keluaq kelas apa semua nak ungkit pasai keberkatan.
aku paling pantang bila orang kata " hang sumbang apa ja kat sekolah ? reuslt pun teruk "
싵 ... habis yang masuk kawad sampai kebangsaan , kem sana sini , tokoh nilam , prtndingan sana sini . tu bukan sumbangan ? we did our best untuk naikkan nama sekolah tapi dibalas dengan cacian . bila berlatih , cikgu marah sebab tak study lah , ponteng extra class lah. dah tu xkan boleh dpt johan tanpa berlatih kot ?! people make mistake dude. " practice makes perfect "
i had enough with those people. i just want to give up but when i thought about my parents . i reset back my mind and uninstalll all the negative thoughts. just a few months to go till i left that school. i have to keep strong just to make sure that i can still survive till the end.
good luck dear self 파이팅 !
masalah
2015 , gonna end really soon.
aku masih lagi bersenang lenang.
masih tidak hiraukan apa yang akan jadi tahun hadapan.
aku main main lagi tidak serius .
tahun depan seolah olah aku tidak hadapi sebarang peperiksaan besar,
kerja sekolah yang diberi tidak aku siapkan lagi.
hayut dengan teknologi yang diberikan.
tidak sedar akan cabaran yang akan datang .
aku seperti pelajar yang tidak endah tentang pelajaran aku.
sedangkan aku ambik subjek yang memerlukan banyak penghafalan dan kekuatan mental.
masih, aku tidak mengulangkaji.
aku masih buntu .
aku ada satu masalah yang tidak pasti aku boleh selesaikan atau tidak.
aku seorang pengawas sekolah.
satu jawatan yang bukan semua orang boleh dapat ,
dan satu jawatan yang susah untuk dipikul kerana tanggungjawabnya yang sangat besar.
memandangkan tahun depan adalah tahun dimana aku akan menduduki spm .
aku bercadang untuk letak jawatan.
hal ini kerana, aku bukan sengaja hendak letak jawatan tetapi ,
setiap pengawas berbaju hijau ini harus stay di asrama.
ini yang menghalang aku .
memang banyak kebaikkan asrama but at one point ,
aku tidak boleh fokus dalam kelas kerana terlalu letih and sleepy.
aku bukan tak sayang jawatan aku .
aku dapat kepercayaan untuk jadi pengawas sejak aku di tingkatan dua lagi.
tak kan aku ingin melepaskan macam itu sahaja?
tapi ... asrama? hilang fokus ? mengantuk ? pencapaian aku ?
aku buntu . kenapa aku terikat dengan pelbagai benda.
sepanjang tahun ni , result aku naik turun naik turun.
kadangkala elok kadangkala teruk .
aku tidak sanggup nak biarkan mak ayah aku titiskan airmata mereka dengan result aku yang sebegitu.
memang aku dari sekolah yang bagus. kalau sebut sahaja orang kenal.
tapi aku xleh salahkan sekolah aku kena salahkan diri aku ....
aku boleh nak masuk asrama tapi aku tidak menghantar borangnya lagi.
bukan tak hantar borang pun tiada.
kerana niat aku memang tak nak masuk asrama.
pengalaman aku diasrama ada yang manis and yang pahit .
dan ada juga yang sakit sehingga kini.
but sepanjang aku kat asrama aku beljar banyak benda.
aku belajar berjauhan dengan mak ayah, belajar berdikari , belajar buat kerja sendiri.
pagi sampai malam buat kerja tanpa penat lelah.
kena marah walaupun bukan salah kami.
stayup sampai lewat malam, study sama sama.
orang kata
" pengalaman susah nak cari , but once you got it, forever gonna miss it"
jadi ....
haruskah aku teruskan sebagai "akak hijau" atau tamatkan tahun aku di situ dengan " akak putih " ?
bubble ahjumma
i keep craving craving , you don't know it but it's true .
recently , this one group caught my attention .
they really made me fangirl over nothing toward them.
they have been an idol for awhile but just now i get know them more than before.
i used to hear to their songs, but doesn't really put my interest toward them.
this started , when i was just streaming the youtube freely.
and suddenly , i was stuck at one video . and it was really hilarious .
since that , i started to know them more .
starting from their debut till they are an idol now.
i watch their program that is MyDol , a program which the company will choose who gonna debut .
from 10 members , the lucky 6 people will debut .
the lucky six are ,
N, LEO, KEN, RAVI, HONGBIN, HYUK.
this six idiots have made me fall for them .
the reason i started to interest toward them are their own character ,
some are like dork , some are dumb and dumber , some are cute .
they are totally different,
on the stage they gonna show their handsome , beast and whatsoever but ,
once they were at the backstage you gonna see their playful side .
by the way , they are called VIXX.
N , the leader that always scolded the member just like an omma.
the members always be annoyed by him and he always did the slice-neck thingy.
" slice-neck thingy is something that how i show my love toward the members"
he was also a great mother toward the group , he gives support and really have that mother side .
" during our trainee , i always when to N hyung if i have this difficulty and problem , he surely will listen to it and give his piece of advice"
leader have this tanned skin that always be said by the members.
LEO, he is really one of a kind .
he rarely show his facial expression and just be emotionless.
his skills of singing are no jokes . he have this attraction that will make you love him .
he has this appa side and he was a heart warming person.
taekwoon , will freak out if his receive compliments from others cause he don't know what to do.
his face gonna be really red and he gonna be embarrassed.
" Leo hyung , always act cutely although he doesn't show any facial expression."
" he was just too cute too handle "
KEN, he was really a handsome dork.
he was just really funny and have a great voice.
he has so many nickname but mostly the members call kenjumma.
don't make him mad or either else you would see an ahjumma appear.
"jaehwan hyung always trying to be cute and it kinda cute something but its kind of burden sometimes"
jaehwan character are just unique , he can be funny , cute , handsome, dork , dumb ,idiot .
his attraction was his nose and his side profile are not bad.
RAVI, the rapper of the group.
he likes to compose the music and have a nice sleep ,
he a sleepyhead thought, and someone that can brighten the situation.
he was a loving brother that always love his little sister
wonshik always be bullied by his maknae and always helped leo to grill on meat.
HONGBIN , the face of the group or the visual .
he really have a handsome and big eyes plus with his pale skin .
its really make him more handsome just like the flower boys.
hongbin is really good in acting , he currently busy with his drama.
with his beautiful face , many girls would fall head to toe for him .
during the selection who gonna debut , he once received such a bad comment
"he has the visual , but can't sing "
after those spiteful comment , he decided to change and finally he proved that he can sing well .
HYUK , the youngest in the group.
he one of the evil person in the group . he likes to disturb the hyung .
hyuk was not the original member of the group , but during the selection who gonna debut his got his luck.
the hyung was not really like him at first , he be scolded a lot . the person who taught him vocal are ken and N maybe slightly help him with dance.
hyuk one of the cute person in the group beside the kenjumma.
" sanghyukkie doesn't have to act cute , himself are so cute "
hyuk are one of the member that hyung loves the most although he might be the evil maknae .
hyuk has this charm that will make noona love him . he just cute .hahahaha.
for all this while , i have be fangirling over them and the only one that know is fatihah.
she the one that always read my spamming whatsapp.
hear to my annoting voice during fangirling over them.
luckily she didn't bother with this annoying friend like me .
two days ago , hyuk did a V live .
and i was commenting as usual and what happening is that .
hyuk read mine comment and its really bring me toward happpiness.
it's feel like butterflies in your stomach ... i was really excited.
smiling widely till my mum said what ghost has gotten into you.
that's was the best memory i'm gonna keep .
till meet you again . in another blog i guess hahaha. see ya.
like before ....
bad bad bad bad bad girl ...
aku kembali selepas bulan berganti bulan seterusnya .
kali ni aku nak "blogging" sebab dah lama lepas gian .
memandangkan lama tak menulis ..
jadi kali ni banyak benda aku nak habaq .
exam bulanan tak lama lagi , tapi aku macam endah tak endah .
gila kau , aku kena kerja kuat untuk exam kali ni .
target cikgu untuk aku terlalu tinggi .
tinggi tak tinggi kalau aku gagal , kau tau apa cikgu nak kasi ?
cikgu kata ' kalau kamu gagal dalam peperiksaan kamu , "hadiah " yang banyak akan diberikan'
ko rasa ? aku tak sanggup nak terima hadiah cikgu tu.
okay cukup pasai exam .
sebenarnya kan ,
aku tak berapa nak paham dengan perangai sesetengah orang nieh .
kadang mai mood baik , baik macam malaikat .
tapi bila mai dia punya mood sebaliknya , kalau syaitan .
entahlah , aku tak berani 'judge' orang sebab ...
bila kita judge orang , satu ayat ja akan depa balas ,
" awat hang dah bagus sangat ka nak judge aku "
hello , tak semestinya hang kena perfect untuk tegur orang .
and to be truth , manusia tak ada seorang pun yang perfect .
sebab rata rata manusia , semuanya FAKE .
bukan maksud fake tu muka dia tak original .
maksud aku orang yang fake nie ,
well , hang tau bila hang ada kawan , depan baik nak mati tapi belakang hang dia tikam .
aku bukan nak tuju kat sapa sapa , aku cuma kata ja .
kalau terasa , digest elok-elok biar boleh jadi ingatan sampai bila bila .
berkawan nie kadang kadang kita kena perhati dia elok elok
adakah dia fake atau original ?
ingat kfc ja ada spicy /original ..
aku cukup berhati hati dalam mencari kawan .
sebab kalau kau salah pilih , dushhh!
terus kau kena pulau and kena bash .
aku tulis ni sebab aku pernah rasa perit kena pulau tu .
tapi manusia boleh diberikan peluang kedua .
peluang kedua , ada peluang untuk kau perbaiki semuanya .
kau kena reset balik to main point dalam ko berkawan.
kau delete segala perangai setan ko tu dan try untuk renew cara pergaulan kau .
dengan itu , kau akan jumpa kawan yang sebenar .
kadang kadang , orang yang ko rapat dan kenal kau yang akan pijak kepala kau dulu .
jadi , pandai pandai lah kita fikir guna otak kanan dan kiri untuk selesaikan masalah macam nie .
sebab bergaduh pada usia remaja ni macam budak budak tadika .
aku selalu beralah sebab aku tau kalau EGO VS EGO menangnya SYAITAN .
tak nak tulis panjang berjela ,
aku kalau dah menulis , panjang berjela .
so , apa aku nak kata just that " api tak leh balas api , sebab bila balas api dia kan makin kuat so kita balas dengan air . barulah api tu padam "
bye.
aku sebagai manusia
Assalamualaikum ,
after 20 days , finally i'm here .
this time let me blogging in bahasa.
apa yang terjadi ?
apa yang berlaku ?
kenapa kau begitu kejam ?
manusia ,
engkau hanyalah seorag hamba di dunia ini .
engkau di lahirkan ke dunia untuk menyembah-Nya.
akan tetapi ,
kenapa engkau berperangai seperti itu ?
aku tahu ,
aku bukanlah sempurna ,
aku bukanlah baik sangat ,
aku bukanlah bijak sangat .
aku ,
tak mampu untuk menempuh manusia yang talam dua muka .
tak mampu untuk menghadapi masalah demi masalah.
tak mampu untuk berduka lagi .
tetapi ,
aku cuma mahu satu ,
iaitu kebahagiaan dan ketenangan.
aku perlukan sokongan .
aku perlukan kekuatan .
aku tak mampu untuk menempuh dunia ini tanpa bimbingan .
aku tak boleh melangkah jauh tanpa ilmu pengetahuan .
dan ,
aku tak boleh menyelesaikan masalah aku kalau aku asyik berfikiran negatif .
aku tak boleh perbaiki diri aku kalau asyik menyimpan ego yang tinggi .
aku buntu .
aku rapuh .
aku sukar difahami .
aku kasar dan beremosi .
sebab aku hanyalah manusia biasa .
kenapa orang harus mempertikaikan semua itu ?
kenapa perlu mengkritik seseorang itu berdasarkan rupa parasnya sahaja?
dan ,
kenapa engkau perlu berubah hanya kerana dipijak oleh orang lain ?
kenapa tak bangkit dan hentam orang tersebut balik ?
kenapa perlu musnahkan persahabatan kalian semua ?
kerana EGO yang tinggi .
tidak dapat bezakan antara gurauan dan fakta .
oleh itu manusia ,
janganlah kau terlalu EGO .
janganlah kau terlalu mementingkan hati kau,
sehinggakan kau kehilangan rakan .
hidup ini penuh dengan cabaran .
jika kau bersendirian , kau tidak akan selamat tatkala kau jatuh ke dalam lombong
aku hanya menulis .
aku tidak tuju kepada sesiapa .
tetapi kalau terasa ,
maafkan aku kerana aku menulis berdasarkan apa yang aku perhatikan .
dan ,
pepetah ada kata
"
siapa makan cili , dialah yang merasa pedasnya "
0000 hours
Asssalamualaikum
i'm blogging again . on the same day , different time .
why i feel like blogging ?
cause many things to scream.
and i want to talk about them .
entering the hostel was like a nightmare for me .
but luckily i can survive with those noisy roommate.
i never thought that they can be noisy
and friendly like the cars on the busy roads .
they were just unexpected .
we were at different age .
some are 16 , some 14 and some 13 .
for me , i'm like a senior in that room .
at first , they were so silent and awkward
they do their own works and so on .
day by day passed , we started to talk with each other
and see the result now . they were so noisy .
many things we talk about .
we play jokes .
make fun of each other .
do the cleaning and so on .
last night , we have a girl's talk in my room .
my friends from other room also join .
at that time , age doesn't mean anything .
we suppose to do the homework but ,
instead doing the homework we talk and laugh and talk and laugh again
it's was amazing how we can be friendly during that time .
it's like a movie . when Aliah scream loudly and we will cover her mouth.
when we talk about ' mawar' and laugh
when we combined our bed together
when we always checked if our teacher came by to make a shock visit
and because of one thing
we become a group of 10 people talking and laugh till 2 a.m
it was late at night but they still having fun talking and gossip
how we make jokes on someone .
how we tease the others .
how they afraid to go back to their room .
and make a decisions to sleep in my room
although it was against the rules .
those things will keep in the memory of staying in hostel .
i don't know it can be this fun . the rules might be tight
but once you make friends you will find happiness.
i wouldn't forget
- aliah scream
- hawa laugh without voice coming out
- muni dolphin / typo speaking
-adrifah noisy tracksuit
- damia unstop laugh
- wanie laugh
-ijat and the annoying kid .
- zulaikha the laughing maniac
-yanti sleepy face
and most of all , we sleep 3 bed with 5 people .
and we sleep at 2 a.m .
gossip start from 2330 till 0200 hours .
hahahaha , don't follow this .
it was fun . i hope we can do again but we should be more careful if not
you know the reason .
" different age doesn't mean you can't be friends with others "
last chapter .
Assalamualaikum,
here and here .
i just wanna spend my last chapter , screaming here .
probably today is the last day for 2014 .
i just want to spend more time here .
i need to be the new me starting tomorrow.
be a new you ,it's hard .
lot's of things gonna be throw towards you .
many people will judge and give you bad influence.
but that's it . the things that i have to get over and go through it .
rather it's a pain or healer.
many things happen this year ...
where we struggle with pt3 ,
having lot's of fight ..
broken hearts ...
crying and hurting ....
emotional over nothing ...
stress and tired ...
but , behind those still have some rainbows .
i did keep some memories .
i did treasure something .
i did learn many thing .
and , i don't want to forget it .
a moon shine brightly during nights,
people were to amaze at how beautiful it can be ..
but .. will people realize the darkness beside it ?
even me have my bright side ... no one ever realize the dark side .
i can be fake and i can be myself
but i can't be fake all the times .
it's tiring...
i was hoping 2015 can make me be the real me .
i don't want to be fake anymore .
moreover , i will enter the hostel next year .
i hope i can be better me .
i hope someone can come and talk with me .
i really hope people will realize either i was faking or not .
2014 , make me realize that ..
working hard are not everything you need ..
but honesty ...
you need to be honest with yourself in order to success and
don't forget to keep your time with Allah either you were really busy .
if works more important ... then ask yourself again ...
get a blessing from Him is better or lost in your tracks for a long time ?
so think it carefully ...
i have make my decisions ...
i will improve ...
lastly, for the new year i want ...
a new me .
improvement in study ..
good at sports ..
don't want to be lazy ass anymore ..
be more active ...
talk more in better way ..
try to accept things even if its bad ...
study more and less play ..
do not be to emotional ..
don't cry if it still can be handle ...
still support bts and exo ..
make my mum and dad proud..
make a wise decisions
and do not forget Allah .
" forgive what i have done before , i'm sorry "
KEJAM
Dah lama aku tak jejak sini sebab aku terlalu sibuk dengan dunia.
orang tengok aku mesti depa kata aku nie tak dak masalah kan ?
sebab orang yang akan tau aku betul betul ada masalah just a few of them. even kawan baik sendiri tak tau yang aku ada masalah. well , people nowadays busy with their own business.
aku bukan apa ,
aku memang suka sembang dengan orang get to know each other more .. i love those . but saying lies to me are just to rude dear.
am i that easy to be fool by you ?
bagi yang kenal aku , tau perangai aku macam mana bagi yang zero pasai life aku mohon pergi jauh jangan duk buat fitnah banyak banyak sgt.
bila pengetua nak kasi keputusan nieh ? aku rasa permintaan aku senang ja ." aku nak keluaq asrama " tu ja . simple as ABC. orang luaq tengok aigs nie besar , mewah but they don't even know thatj , it just cause pain to every students. serious aku cakap , aku buat keputusan yang salah untuk stay kat situ . dulu aku terlalu takut untuk hilang kawan . untuk hilang suasana yang aku dah biasa . takut nak jumpa laki . takut nak kena belajar science stream subjects in malay. aku takut keluar nanti iman aku tak terjaga . tapi aku salah . ketakutan aku dulu membawa padah dekat aku sendiri.
aku cuba untuk urus masa aku tapi hang tau tak yang kebanyakkan masa aku dihabiskan dengan buat kerja sekolah sahaja. selama 3 bulan aku stay asrama tahun nieh , aku tak pernah lagi ada masa untuk study. kerja sekolah untuk 11 subjek bukan stu dua subjek ja . kalau cuti 2 hari homework macam seminggu. kalau cuti seminggu homeworks macam sebulan .
keja cikgu senang lah , semak ja .kalau tak siap marah pelajar . kalau salah buat pangkah besaq besaq. typical life. hello , yes aku ambik spm tahun nie tapi kalau masa aku dihabiskan buat homework bila ja aku nak study . " takpa tahun nieh last"
yes the last year tapi nak tunggu the end of year yang perit tuh.
bila perlukan pertolongan kami bantu dengan rela hati , tapi bila keluaq kelas apa semua nak ungkit pasai keberkatan.
aku paling pantang bila orang kata " hang sumbang apa ja kat sekolah ? reuslt pun teruk "
싵 ... habis yang masuk kawad sampai kebangsaan , kem sana sini , tokoh nilam , prtndingan sana sini . tu bukan sumbangan ? we did our best untuk naikkan nama sekolah tapi dibalas dengan cacian . bila berlatih , cikgu marah sebab tak study lah , ponteng extra class lah. dah tu xkan boleh dpt johan tanpa berlatih kot ?! people make mistake dude. " practice makes perfect "
i had enough with those people. i just want to give up but when i thought about my parents . i reset back my mind and uninstalll all the negative thoughts. just a few months to go till i left that school. i have to keep strong just to make sure that i can still survive till the end.
good luck dear self 파이팅 !
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2015 , gonna end really soon.
aku masih lagi bersenang lenang.
masih tidak hiraukan apa yang akan jadi tahun hadapan.
aku main main lagi tidak serius .
tahun depan seolah olah aku tidak hadapi sebarang peperiksaan besar,
kerja sekolah yang diberi tidak aku siapkan lagi.
hayut dengan teknologi yang diberikan.
tidak sedar akan cabaran yang akan datang .
aku seperti pelajar yang tidak endah tentang pelajaran aku.
sedangkan aku ambik subjek yang memerlukan banyak penghafalan dan kekuatan mental.
masih, aku tidak mengulangkaji.
aku masih buntu .
aku ada satu masalah yang tidak pasti aku boleh selesaikan atau tidak.
aku seorang pengawas sekolah.
satu jawatan yang bukan semua orang boleh dapat ,
dan satu jawatan yang susah untuk dipikul kerana tanggungjawabnya yang sangat besar.
memandangkan tahun depan adalah tahun dimana aku akan menduduki spm .
aku bercadang untuk letak jawatan.
hal ini kerana, aku bukan sengaja hendak letak jawatan tetapi ,
setiap pengawas berbaju hijau ini harus stay di asrama.
ini yang menghalang aku .
memang banyak kebaikkan asrama but at one point ,
aku tidak boleh fokus dalam kelas kerana terlalu letih and sleepy.
aku bukan tak sayang jawatan aku .
aku dapat kepercayaan untuk jadi pengawas sejak aku di tingkatan dua lagi.
tak kan aku ingin melepaskan macam itu sahaja?
tapi ... asrama? hilang fokus ? mengantuk ? pencapaian aku ?
aku buntu . kenapa aku terikat dengan pelbagai benda.
sepanjang tahun ni , result aku naik turun naik turun.
kadangkala elok kadangkala teruk .
aku tidak sanggup nak biarkan mak ayah aku titiskan airmata mereka dengan result aku yang sebegitu.
memang aku dari sekolah yang bagus. kalau sebut sahaja orang kenal.
tapi aku xleh salahkan sekolah aku kena salahkan diri aku ....
aku boleh nak masuk asrama tapi aku tidak menghantar borangnya lagi.
bukan tak hantar borang pun tiada.
kerana niat aku memang tak nak masuk asrama.
pengalaman aku diasrama ada yang manis and yang pahit .
dan ada juga yang sakit sehingga kini.
but sepanjang aku kat asrama aku beljar banyak benda.
aku belajar berjauhan dengan mak ayah, belajar berdikari , belajar buat kerja sendiri.
pagi sampai malam buat kerja tanpa penat lelah.
kena marah walaupun bukan salah kami.
stayup sampai lewat malam, study sama sama.
orang kata
" pengalaman susah nak cari , but once you got it, forever gonna miss it"
jadi ....
haruskah aku teruskan sebagai "akak hijau" atau tamatkan tahun aku di situ dengan " akak putih " ?
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i keep craving craving , you don't know it but it's true .
recently , this one group caught my attention .
they really made me fangirl over nothing toward them.
they have been an idol for awhile but just now i get know them more than before.
i used to hear to their songs, but doesn't really put my interest toward them.
this started , when i was just streaming the youtube freely.
and suddenly , i was stuck at one video . and it was really hilarious .
since that , i started to know them more .
starting from their debut till they are an idol now.
i watch their program that is MyDol , a program which the company will choose who gonna debut .
from 10 members , the lucky 6 people will debut .
the lucky six are ,
N, LEO, KEN, RAVI, HONGBIN, HYUK.
this six idiots have made me fall for them .
the reason i started to interest toward them are their own character ,
some are like dork , some are dumb and dumber , some are cute .
they are totally different,
on the stage they gonna show their handsome , beast and whatsoever but ,
once they were at the backstage you gonna see their playful side .
by the way , they are called VIXX.
N , the leader that always scolded the member just like an omma.
the members always be annoyed by him and he always did the slice-neck thingy.
" slice-neck thingy is something that how i show my love toward the members"
he was also a great mother toward the group , he gives support and really have that mother side .
" during our trainee , i always when to N hyung if i have this difficulty and problem , he surely will listen to it and give his piece of advice"
leader have this tanned skin that always be said by the members.
LEO, he is really one of a kind .
he rarely show his facial expression and just be emotionless.
his skills of singing are no jokes . he have this attraction that will make you love him .
he has this appa side and he was a heart warming person.
taekwoon , will freak out if his receive compliments from others cause he don't know what to do.
his face gonna be really red and he gonna be embarrassed.
" Leo hyung , always act cutely although he doesn't show any facial expression."
" he was just too cute too handle "
KEN, he was really a handsome dork.
he was just really funny and have a great voice.
he has so many nickname but mostly the members call kenjumma.
don't make him mad or either else you would see an ahjumma appear.
"jaehwan hyung always trying to be cute and it kinda cute something but its kind of burden sometimes"
jaehwan character are just unique , he can be funny , cute , handsome, dork , dumb ,idiot .
his attraction was his nose and his side profile are not bad.
RAVI, the rapper of the group.
he likes to compose the music and have a nice sleep ,
he a sleepyhead thought, and someone that can brighten the situation.
he was a loving brother that always love his little sister
wonshik always be bullied by his maknae and always helped leo to grill on meat.
HONGBIN , the face of the group or the visual .
he really have a handsome and big eyes plus with his pale skin .
its really make him more handsome just like the flower boys.
hongbin is really good in acting , he currently busy with his drama.
with his beautiful face , many girls would fall head to toe for him .
during the selection who gonna debut , he once received such a bad comment
"he has the visual , but can't sing "
after those spiteful comment , he decided to change and finally he proved that he can sing well .
HYUK , the youngest in the group.
he one of the evil person in the group . he likes to disturb the hyung .
hyuk was not the original member of the group , but during the selection who gonna debut his got his luck.
the hyung was not really like him at first , he be scolded a lot . the person who taught him vocal are ken and N maybe slightly help him with dance.
hyuk one of the cute person in the group beside the kenjumma.
" sanghyukkie doesn't have to act cute , himself are so cute "
hyuk are one of the member that hyung loves the most although he might be the evil maknae .
hyuk has this charm that will make noona love him . he just cute .hahahaha.
for all this while , i have be fangirling over them and the only one that know is fatihah.
she the one that always read my spamming whatsapp.
hear to my annoting voice during fangirling over them.
luckily she didn't bother with this annoying friend like me .
two days ago , hyuk did a V live .
and i was commenting as usual and what happening is that .
hyuk read mine comment and its really bring me toward happpiness.
it's feel like butterflies in your stomach ... i was really excited.
smiling widely till my mum said what ghost has gotten into you.
that's was the best memory i'm gonna keep .
till meet you again . in another blog i guess hahaha. see ya.
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bad bad bad bad bad girl ...
aku kembali selepas bulan berganti bulan seterusnya .
kali ni aku nak "blogging" sebab dah lama lepas gian .
memandangkan lama tak menulis ..
jadi kali ni banyak benda aku nak habaq .
exam bulanan tak lama lagi , tapi aku macam endah tak endah .
gila kau , aku kena kerja kuat untuk exam kali ni .
target cikgu untuk aku terlalu tinggi .
tinggi tak tinggi kalau aku gagal , kau tau apa cikgu nak kasi ?
cikgu kata ' kalau kamu gagal dalam peperiksaan kamu , "hadiah " yang banyak akan diberikan'
ko rasa ? aku tak sanggup nak terima hadiah cikgu tu.
okay cukup pasai exam .
sebenarnya kan ,
aku tak berapa nak paham dengan perangai sesetengah orang nieh .
kadang mai mood baik , baik macam malaikat .
tapi bila mai dia punya mood sebaliknya , kalau syaitan .
entahlah , aku tak berani 'judge' orang sebab ...
bila kita judge orang , satu ayat ja akan depa balas ,
" awat hang dah bagus sangat ka nak judge aku "
hello , tak semestinya hang kena perfect untuk tegur orang .
and to be truth , manusia tak ada seorang pun yang perfect .
sebab rata rata manusia , semuanya FAKE .
bukan maksud fake tu muka dia tak original .
maksud aku orang yang fake nie ,
well , hang tau bila hang ada kawan , depan baik nak mati tapi belakang hang dia tikam .
aku bukan nak tuju kat sapa sapa , aku cuma kata ja .
kalau terasa , digest elok-elok biar boleh jadi ingatan sampai bila bila .
berkawan nie kadang kadang kita kena perhati dia elok elok
adakah dia fake atau original ?
ingat kfc ja ada spicy /original ..
aku cukup berhati hati dalam mencari kawan .
sebab kalau kau salah pilih , dushhh!
terus kau kena pulau and kena bash .
aku tulis ni sebab aku pernah rasa perit kena pulau tu .
tapi manusia boleh diberikan peluang kedua .
peluang kedua , ada peluang untuk kau perbaiki semuanya .
kau kena reset balik to main point dalam ko berkawan.
kau delete segala perangai setan ko tu dan try untuk renew cara pergaulan kau .
dengan itu , kau akan jumpa kawan yang sebenar .
kadang kadang , orang yang ko rapat dan kenal kau yang akan pijak kepala kau dulu .
jadi , pandai pandai lah kita fikir guna otak kanan dan kiri untuk selesaikan masalah macam nie .
sebab bergaduh pada usia remaja ni macam budak budak tadika .
aku selalu beralah sebab aku tau kalau EGO VS EGO menangnya SYAITAN .
tak nak tulis panjang berjela ,
aku kalau dah menulis , panjang berjela .
so , apa aku nak kata just that " api tak leh balas api , sebab bila balas api dia kan makin kuat so kita balas dengan air . barulah api tu padam "
bye.
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Assalamualaikum ,
after 20 days , finally i'm here .
this time let me blogging in bahasa.
apa yang terjadi ?
apa yang berlaku ?
kenapa kau begitu kejam ?
manusia ,
engkau hanyalah seorag hamba di dunia ini .
engkau di lahirkan ke dunia untuk menyembah-Nya.
akan tetapi ,
kenapa engkau berperangai seperti itu ?
aku tahu ,
aku bukanlah sempurna ,
aku bukanlah baik sangat ,
aku bukanlah bijak sangat .
aku ,
tak mampu untuk menempuh manusia yang talam dua muka .
tak mampu untuk menghadapi masalah demi masalah.
tak mampu untuk berduka lagi .
tetapi ,
aku cuma mahu satu ,
iaitu kebahagiaan dan ketenangan.
aku perlukan sokongan .
aku perlukan kekuatan .
aku tak mampu untuk menempuh dunia ini tanpa bimbingan .
aku tak boleh melangkah jauh tanpa ilmu pengetahuan .
dan ,
aku tak boleh menyelesaikan masalah aku kalau aku asyik berfikiran negatif .
aku tak boleh perbaiki diri aku kalau asyik menyimpan ego yang tinggi .
aku buntu .
aku rapuh .
aku sukar difahami .
aku kasar dan beremosi .
sebab aku hanyalah manusia biasa .
kenapa orang harus mempertikaikan semua itu ?
kenapa perlu mengkritik seseorang itu berdasarkan rupa parasnya sahaja?
dan ,
kenapa engkau perlu berubah hanya kerana dipijak oleh orang lain ?
kenapa tak bangkit dan hentam orang tersebut balik ?
kenapa perlu musnahkan persahabatan kalian semua ?
kerana EGO yang tinggi .
tidak dapat bezakan antara gurauan dan fakta .
oleh itu manusia ,
janganlah kau terlalu EGO .
janganlah kau terlalu mementingkan hati kau,
sehinggakan kau kehilangan rakan .
hidup ini penuh dengan cabaran .
jika kau bersendirian , kau tidak akan selamat tatkala kau jatuh ke dalam lombong
aku hanya menulis .
aku tidak tuju kepada sesiapa .
tetapi kalau terasa ,
maafkan aku kerana aku menulis berdasarkan apa yang aku perhatikan .
dan ,
pepetah ada kata
"
siapa makan cili , dialah yang merasa pedasnya "
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Asssalamualaikum
i'm blogging again . on the same day , different time .
why i feel like blogging ?
cause many things to scream.
and i want to talk about them .
entering the hostel was like a nightmare for me .
but luckily i can survive with those noisy roommate.
i never thought that they can be noisy
and friendly like the cars on the busy roads .
they were just unexpected .
we were at different age .
some are 16 , some 14 and some 13 .
for me , i'm like a senior in that room .
at first , they were so silent and awkward
they do their own works and so on .
day by day passed , we started to talk with each other
and see the result now . they were so noisy .
many things we talk about .
we play jokes .
make fun of each other .
do the cleaning and so on .
last night , we have a girl's talk in my room .
my friends from other room also join .
at that time , age doesn't mean anything .
we suppose to do the homework but ,
instead doing the homework we talk and laugh and talk and laugh again
it's was amazing how we can be friendly during that time .
it's like a movie . when Aliah scream loudly and we will cover her mouth.
when we talk about ' mawar' and laugh
when we combined our bed together
when we always checked if our teacher came by to make a shock visit
and because of one thing
we become a group of 10 people talking and laugh till 2 a.m
it was late at night but they still having fun talking and gossip
how we make jokes on someone .
how we tease the others .
how they afraid to go back to their room .
and make a decisions to sleep in my room
although it was against the rules .
those things will keep in the memory of staying in hostel .
i don't know it can be this fun . the rules might be tight
but once you make friends you will find happiness.
i wouldn't forget
- aliah scream
- hawa laugh without voice coming out
- muni dolphin / typo speaking
-adrifah noisy tracksuit
- damia unstop laugh
- wanie laugh
-ijat and the annoying kid .
- zulaikha the laughing maniac
-yanti sleepy face
and most of all , we sleep 3 bed with 5 people .
and we sleep at 2 a.m .
gossip start from 2330 till 0200 hours .
hahahaha , don't follow this .
it was fun . i hope we can do again but we should be more careful if not
you know the reason .
" different age doesn't mean you can't be friends with others "
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Assalamualaikum,
here and here .
i just wanna spend my last chapter , screaming here .
probably today is the last day for 2014 .
i just want to spend more time here .
i need to be the new me starting tomorrow.
be a new you ,it's hard .
lot's of things gonna be throw towards you .
many people will judge and give you bad influence.
but that's it . the things that i have to get over and go through it .
rather it's a pain or healer.
many things happen this year ...
where we struggle with pt3 ,
having lot's of fight ..
broken hearts ...
crying and hurting ....
emotional over nothing ...
stress and tired ...
but , behind those still have some rainbows .
i did keep some memories .
i did treasure something .
i did learn many thing .
and , i don't want to forget it .
a moon shine brightly during nights,
people were to amaze at how beautiful it can be ..
but .. will people realize the darkness beside it ?
even me have my bright side ... no one ever realize the dark side .
i can be fake and i can be myself
but i can't be fake all the times .
it's tiring...
i was hoping 2015 can make me be the real me .
i don't want to be fake anymore .
moreover , i will enter the hostel next year .
i hope i can be better me .
i hope someone can come and talk with me .
i really hope people will realize either i was faking or not .
2014 , make me realize that ..
working hard are not everything you need ..
but honesty ...
you need to be honest with yourself in order to success and
don't forget to keep your time with Allah either you were really busy .
if works more important ... then ask yourself again ...
get a blessing from Him is better or lost in your tracks for a long time ?
so think it carefully ...
i have make my decisions ...
i will improve ...
lastly, for the new year i want ...
a new me .
improvement in study ..
good at sports ..
don't want to be lazy ass anymore ..
be more active ...
talk more in better way ..
try to accept things even if its bad ...
study more and less play ..
do not be to emotional ..
don't cry if it still can be handle ...
still support bts and exo ..
make my mum and dad proud..
make a wise decisions
and do not forget Allah .
" forgive what i have done before , i'm sorry "
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